Posted on: 2015-03-19 by Guest

I had a dream last night that I was fighting in a war. I killing a lot of people and wasn't even thinking about it. At one point, the dream took a turn and I ended up on top of a cliff looking over a lake with a big fence around it. Inside the fence were a heard of deer. I started shooting at the fence and made the deer move closer to me, then I started killing the deer. I somehow found myself at the bottom of the cliff and there was a curved dagger like knife next to me. I took the knife, and I remember thinking that I was tired of all the fighting and killing and wanted to die. I tried to stab myself in the chest but it didn't work. I think there might have been someone else there because I remember the phrase Try again or try harder being said to me. I was then able to shove the knife into my chest. It didn't really hurt, more like a heavy pressure on my chest. I kind remember thinking that if I wanted the blood to flow I needed to pull the knife out. I did and then remember lying on the ground watching the blood flow out of the wound. I didn't die though. Instead, I just remember closing my eyes. That was when I woke up. Except When I woke up, I could still feel the wound on my chest, except It wasn't fresh, just a scabbed over scar like thing. I can still feel the pressure right now and it's been almost 6 hours since. I can't get the feeling of stabbing myself out of my mind.