Posted on: 2015-11-03 by LA143

I have an inescapable dream I remembered watching a video instructing how to have a lucid dream a few days ago. They said people should have some kind of dream diary placed right next to where you sleep, so that’s when you wake up, you can write it down immediately. The idea of having lucid dream quite fascinates me but I do not intend to having one. So I did not follow any instructions. Today, I sleep at 2 in the afternoon. And I set the alarm clock at 3.15 pm. I was having a dream when the alarm went off. I have forgotten that dream. But I remember I was woken up by the alarm. I was so sleepy that I just turned off the alarm to go back to sleep. At this point, things were getting strange. Right after turning off the alarm, I went to a dream (I don’t know if it was the same one before I turned off the alarm or not because I don’t remember the previous one) in which I met my cousins and they were kids (we are all grow ups now). I don’t remember any other things but this detail helped me realize that I was in a dream. So I tried to wake up. And I did wake up (or so I thought). I didn’t know why but at that moment I found the dream in which my cousins were kids quite interesting. I went to my desk to find pen and paper to note down that dream. It was as if my habit was noting down dreams but in fact it was not. I suddenly thought “ Wait a minute. Why do I want to note down this dream?” And then I saw a vibrator on my desk. Uhm, I do not own a vibrator. This must be a dream. So I tried to wake up and I found myself in bed again. This time it was my sister who waked me up. I smiled at her but then I remembered I did not live with her anymore. She could not be in my house. This was another dream. I tried to re-affirm by hurting myself like pinching my hand or biting my finger… I did not feel any pains. So, yeah, I was dreaming all this time. From this point I do not remember how many times I had dreamt of waking up in my own bed then something strange happened to let me know that I was dreaming. It was like inception! I remembered this time I woke up and heard a voiceover telling me some stories. That voice sounded like one of my lecturer in college, except it’s English (I am not from an English speaking countries). Another time I saw my room objects flying around. There was a time I met my sister again. I don’t remember them all but there came a point that the first thing I did when I “woke up” was biting my own finger. I have the feeling that the harder I tried to really get out of dreams, the harder it was to “move” around. In one of my first times of “waking up”, I could “walk” around. But in the latter ones, I could not get out of the bed. I can turn myself left or right but I could not “get” up. Then I could not move my body at all. It was slowly turning to a sleep paralysis. Finally, I could wake up at 3.30. The whole crazy thing just took 15 minutes, but I felt it was forever. So, I am wondering if what I had experienced was lucid dream or not? And why it was so difficult to wake up? Is it because I was conflicted with my self, like I thought I do not want a lucid dream but deep inside I want to having one? Oh, sorry for rambling so much. As I have said above, I’m not an English native speaker, so please spare me if there are grammar mistakes or inappropriate expressions!