Posted on: 2016-02-11 by Guest

I'll make a long story short, since I just typed my whole dream and my phone died before I could post it.. I had a reoccurring dream that I was trying to get out of a hospital and usually when I leave I get hit by a car and die. This time I had my dying grandfather with me (he's not doing too good in real life, he's in the hospital in dialysis right now) and he wanted to leave through the door but I wouldn't let him... I was looking for any other way to leave the hospital because I knew he would die if he left that way. So as we head through the staircases in the hospital we keep passing broken flooring & doors trying to make us turn back around but I refused (I have experience controlling my dreams so I was just ignoring these things knowing the door would still open, floor wouldn't cave in, etc.) then we passed a hand written sign that said "You can't write your own ending ass hole". Soon after, we made it to a hospital room and my papa (not even too sure it was him, I feel as though this old man represented myself) collapsed and started dying.. I just dropped to my knees and started begging and pleading. I prayed to Jesus who I don't believe in (I grew up Christian but completely found my own idea on what life is about & about religion and all that. And anyone who knows me knows I think Jesus is a metaphor for an example of how humanity should be) and I prayed so hard I was speaking in tongues and bawling my eyes out while clutching a black bandana in my right hand.. I had my eyes shut tight hoping he'd (I'd) be okay when I opened my eyes. (He was also really really old looking and had all white hair & my papa doesn't look like that) but when I opened my eyes all the nurses and my papa were gone and it was just me kneeling on the floor and when I looked at the bandana it was all "bloody" but the "blood" was rainbow colored. Couple important bits of info about my waking life: My papa lost his wife almost 2 years ago. They are my moms parents and my grandmas death hit me hard. I still haven't dealt with it thoroughly I don't think.. I get / feel vibes very strongly and I very much believe in signs and premonitions I've been making not so much poor as RANDOM life changing decisions based on my fear / uncertainty about my future. Anyone with experience in this areas input is much appreciated!