Posted on: 2018-02-03 by HeyMonica

Last night I had a dream where I was sitting on the floor at my house with 3 other people, a girl and two guys. The two guys sat on the sofa to my right and the girl was sitting on the floor on my left having her back to a wall. The weird thing is that the girl resembled a teenage version of my mom. Everything in my living room was the same besides the table in the center. So I entered the dream mid sentence of something I was saying. I was talking about how I want to commit suicide and how I just hate being alive. The girl was silently crying as if she agreed with what I was saying about life having no meaning. The two guys sat there silent and then the guy who sat on the right side of the sofa began to talk about how he once attempted to commit suicide (very breakfast club-esque) and we all just listened to him. Suddenly, I think a time lapse occurred and the girl was gone and the two guys were planning on going home because they thought it was getting late. I’m sitting on the couch watching a Houston Rockets game when the guys head towards the door. The guy who spoke leaves but the guy who remained silent asks me what time it is and realizes that there isn’t a point to go home early and he sits down next to me to watch the game. The dream was pretty random but something about sitting next to this guy (he looked like a mix of a couple guys I matched with on tinder) just gave me a since of warmth and love. It was like everything in my life made sense even though the previous events were pretty heavy. I don’t know if the meaning of that dream was to show desire to find someone and cope with my loneliness and my longing to tell people how I truly feel IMD