Posted on: 2018-09-10 by Guest

I’ve been having horrible dreams either me hurting loved ones or loved ones hurting people I like. I’ve got a little girl who will be 2 next month and I love her dearly, but last night I dreamt that we went on a trip and I just left her at a gas station and then I realized I didn’t have her. Then I wake up go check on her and she’s still asleep so then I go back to sleep and I have her again this time we’re at family and I’m helping pitching in to her while she plays with her toys and everything fine. I’ve dreamt about harming her in my sleep and I feel guilty when I wake up because I’d never harm her. I’m diagnosed with epilepsy and had a horrible one this last time to where it lasted over 14hrs and it left me hospitalized for a week and before that I was always working so I was never really home. So now that I am it’s always “mom” and I’m so sick of that word. She’ll say it literally 50 times a day and I’ll answer “what” but she’ll just continue to say it and it’s driving me nuts. I know she’s doing it because I was never home but she never does it to dad and I’ve been home for over a month from the hospital. I don’t really know how to explain my dreams or why I’m even having them like this.