Posted on: 2012-12-12 by Guest

for the past couple months i keep having dreams of like regular day to day life.. like memories.. but its me during a pregnancy and after.. and its not out of order... like when i first got pregnant it was because i was raped.. and then i have memory from a month later.. 4 months in 7 months along. stuff like that. i remember the people from my dreams. and i vividly remember my baby boy. like sometimes i really feel like i have a baby... some dreams are just us in the garden or baking and painting. just me and my baby.. sometimes friends... my babys name is Caleb he looks like his father with blonde curly hair and big blue eyes. and dark long lashes.. chubby cheeks... hes so cute.. i feel real actual love for him.. in real life. i wish he was real.. but im only 14.... oh and his father isnt a person from real life.... but i feel like ive known him forever.. he was my friend in my dreams but betrayed me and raped me... i still love him though.. but i cant stand being around him because i get sad... this all feels so real.. like i am living two lives..